everything's alrite

my weekend was a quiet one....quite well spent too...
on sat went over to gab's and spend a short afternoon together juz watchin cable tv...thereafter we went to catch "Shall We Dance?" in century square....nice and heartwarming movie....juz to emphasize a little on the movie....Richard Gere still look as charming as ever...the main gist of the movie was to tell us to do wat u like most and do the things that make u happy....
Richard Gere's character in the movie was a so-call 'workaholic' from morning till evening...and when everyday after work while takin the train home he would pass by a dancing sch and realised that he really would like to take up dancing...he wouldn't tell anyone even his wife as he as ashame that a guy dancing ballroom dance...and overcome it later on...
one phrase that Richard Gere's wife said touched me...she said "the reason that you want to get married to this person is becoz u wanna witness his life, be it be happy moments or sad moments you juz want to witness everything that is goin on with his life...and i also wan him to witness my life...itz juz something so special..." wow~!!...itz was so emotional...
kz den after the movie we went to east coast park....was suppose to meet gab's parents for dinner coz it was his bro's bf...so we had jap food for dinner at Warako....boy gab's bro darren could really wack all the food...he was really a good eater for jap food...ate a lot...i juz had salmon....
after dinner we went separate ways and gab and i walk along the beach and he sent me hm...
went hm feelin quite tired but happy...dae was well-spent....

Now at work..waiting for lunch time...hahah!!

InFlammed

my throat's inflammed again.....itz a trend for me to get inflammed throat once in a while....but itz been quite frequent lately....guess itz the surrounding im gettin used to...but i foresee i'll settle down soon....
feelin drowsy now after taking my cough medicine....went to the doc juz now but she din gimmi mc so still gotta work....
thinkin whether i should go for my class this evening....
my eyes are half open...my hands are weak....
feel like sleeping now sia....

<---C.H.O.I.C.E.S--->

life is full of choices....and itz important to make the RIGHT one!!....
went for an interview after my work juz now....the interviewer which is also the boss actually offered me the job as a corporate secretarial and wanted me to start work tml but of course i cant coz i juz started work yesterdae...so i faked him that im teaching tuition part time and took over some students from my "fren" and need abt 2 weeks to clear all committments...and he offered me that he's willing to give in and allow me to come in to office in the afternoon these 2 weeks....of coz i still cant accept it and i told him my schedule is very tight....so finally he gave a sigh and told me that he've got no choice but to select someone else first and later see if he can take me in after chinese new year....
been thinking from juz now till now....i shouldn't job hop anymore....maybe i should stay put at my present job....though the company is small but i think my boss is nice to me...moreover she's the lecturer of the school im studyin in now....
What CHOICE should i make?

2nd dae at work....alone in the office now....great feelin to be alone...allow to use the net...listen to the radio....
this evening goin for an interview...tml took off and goin for another interview...
when will this stop....
goin over to the client's place soon....
update soon tonite....!

Another First Dae

tml is another first dae for me......juz hope everything will be fine!!

Wazz Up wif Me

im beginning to stray away from myself.......i dunno myself....i dunno wats becoming of me.....i dun feel myself anymore....i used to be full of passion and know which path to take....im very fickle minded these daes...jumping in and out of things as quickly as nobody can imagine....itz like a sudden lost of direction in me and im stuck in a maze....a very big and difficult maze and im still solving it....got myself a new job this week and im out of it....isn't it quick....has anyone been to work on the 1st and also became her last?....haha...there's one living example here...*quick laugh at me*....i can lose a job in a sec and get another one the next...but the duration i can keep up wif it is another story....im losing confidence in myself....i need to find it back....my frenz ard are alreadi gettin used to their present lifestyle...but not me....if i tell sam and min abt wat happened the past week they gonna laugh their heads off...

Things i think i need to do:

1) To stay on wif a job at least 2 mths(max) and not hop ard like a crazy grasshopper.
2) To keep up pace wif my sch work.
3) To alwiz think positive and not complain abt anything and everything.
4) To be able to get a nice new year top,esp a red top to ward off all the bad luck.
5) Not to let my parents worry abt me too much.
6) Get to see sam and min more often...seeing them is like giving me moral support and i hope i can gif them too.
7) To be more understanding to gabbie, im alwiz as emotionless as a zombie.

I have more to achieve so i shall not dwell too much on the unhappy stuff....I shall look forward for a better tml>>

Wenzzz out!

Paralyzing Predicaments

Our friend's horse was in a jam. She has accidentally stepped into a small feeder that's usually used to hold a mineral block. It was so bitter cold that the bottom cracked when the mare stepped on it and her hoof went all the way through. Of course, that created something like a plastic bracelet around her hoof and she couldn't get it off. Visiting relatives saw the mare just standing there like a statue; traumatized and paralyzed by this thing that wouldn't come off her foot. So, they went out there to help. One of them calmed the horse while the other worked on setting her free. Now, this is interesting because usually this horse would balk at strangers getting near her, but not this time. She stood perfectly still, somehow realizing that these people had come to help her out of her jam. And they did.

Even though the horse was scared, she was smart enough to let someone help her. Sadly, she was smarter than many of us when we're hurting or in a predicament. Maybe you're struggling with something right now, are you struggling alone? Are you stuck in your problem and not let anyone help you? Like that horse, you may not be able to move on unless and until you open up to some help.

Some of us try to be Lone Rangers, keeping everything inside, proudly trying to handle it all by ourselves. But even the Lone Ranger had Tonto! In our word for modern day, from the Word of God.

"Two are better than one...if one falls down,his friend can help him up. But pity the man who falls down and has no one to help him up!...Though one may be overpowered, two can defend themselves. A cord of three strands is not quickly broken."

I believe those three strands are you, God and someone you open up to and let them help you. And right now if you are standing, basically paralyzed, because of you reluctance to let someone get close enough to help you, it's time to share the burden - however frightened or ashamed or wounded you may be. Share it with a friend, a counselor, a family member you trust. You need their perspective. You need their support. You need their wisdom. They will be able to see things you can't see. They will think of things from an objective perspective. Whether it's you past...your addiction....your big decision...your dark secret...or any other struggle. You were never meant to face it alone.

"God commands us:'forget the former things; do not dwell on the past. See, I am doing a new thing!'"

Open up to the help of your Lord and of someone that He will use to help you get moving again...and then,don't keep dwelling on the trouble or the trauma.....by the way, after that horse was rescued from her predicament, she responded in an interesting way. She didn't move for hours - even though she was free. That could be a picture of someone who's listening right now, as well.

He has given you His new identity, His forgiveness, His grace for your relief, His freedom to make your future different from your past - but you're still standing there like you're still a prisoner, like you're still a victim. You're free - you can walk, you can trot, you can gallop. It's time to get moving again! You don't have to be paralyzed - you're free to run again! Move on!

Woah~!!..Ho

went for the 2nd interview this morning wif the HR mgr and she told me tt she'll contact me again...and wat....i got a call abt half an hour ago to say i can start work tml...haha...post would be HR exec...hee hee...coz i had past experience so i was choosen....can i count it as lucky....gotta work on sat leh...but every job got its plus and minus....so i really gotta manage my time properly...coz still gotta study...wld be working under prudential under HR side...hope i'll not be stressed like wat my previous job expects me to....at least there isn't any OT....
there's lots of things in mind now i want to buy...hmmm...gotta write out my shopping list soon...heh...

Rough

this week's pretty rough.......been job hunting since dunno when though i had a job...been job hopping too much till im kinda numb with interviews....no more nervousness during interviews....juz like 'go-for-the-sake-of-goin' kinda attitude....i noe its bad but its juz the way it is...
whole week of school finally i can rest next week as im free of sch...will have intensive job search as im out of job again....dun wanna tok abt wat happened but sharks it was terrible...
therefore i hope my prospective employer would be a nicer person...
these daes every blog that i read is abt stress at work otherwise its unhappiness at work....wats wrong wif those employers these daes...aren't they contented wif us when we even put in lots of effort in our job...wth...employers big deal....wait till im one....but i'll be nice to my staff....
hey everybody out there who's having trouble wif work and stressed out or watever unhappiness u've got...cheer up....coz everyone's having the same faith....guess all fresh grads out there are experiencing the same thing unless those lucky ones who got the right job from the beginning....
March On, Pals~!!

Back to the Routine

gonna go back to work after a day of mc....i mean fake mc...went to the doc without any sickness and gotten a mc...gonna have that kinda of rushy attitude again...no words can describe this week....itz work and sch ALL the Way mon thru sat....so can i consider myself making use of time wisely?....hmmm...haha....8.30-5.30 is work den rush off to sch for lesson 7-10pm...thats great and i reach hm ard 10 plus watch a bit of tv bathe and sleep....and itz the next day....the cycle go on again...
juz cant wait for tml to end and sat to come....the weekends juz fly pass so quickly and weekdays juz crawl slowly like a snail....why?

Im juz TirEd

juz sent some resumes....phew~!!!...i hope to be as calm as possible.....still searching for the right jobs....been job hopping for quite a while....i need more time to noe wat i want.....sharks~!!!....

juz wanna update on the past week...last saturday went to watch S.H.E concert at the indoor stadium wif gab....it was a christmas present from him....the concert was great....really think these gals have quite good stage presence though at times they tend to be carried away and tok and tok non-stop like they are all by themselves....

and these 2 days at work was like i was rushing all the way....i was rushing a report and did a lot of amendments to it before giving to my mgr to review todae....my senior have been pressing me to rush out reports and keep telling me that everything is urgent!!!.....of course everything is Urgent....wat the heck in the office is not urgent....but no....still have to rush me all the time....whole day keep intercom-ing me asking me i do until where liao....siao.....robot also not so strong...will breakdown wha.....so im taking mc tml....ha ha ha....though im not sick la....aniwae i can claim medical fee so take la...nothing to lose....more time to sleep....wah...im hungry man.....tooo much to tok abt my workplace liao till i dunno how to start....or i may not be able to stop...hiak~!!!>.....hope things will slowly fall in place asap...

Happi?....Happy not~

i actually dunno how to describe my feelings for the past week and this week.....though started on a new job but kinda find things REAL tough to learn esp this one now....in the past i dun get daunted or startle wif workload or difficulty in level of the job...but now i do esp wif audit....guess audit is really not my cup of tea....
goin for an interview wif a real estate agent company for a customer service agent position...guess i really need lighter jobs to balance up my sch term which is starting next week....this job is too stressful....no OT am i able to spare....work is piling up day by day....
im juz full of complains i dunno y but who dun complains....esp when i've been lost since i graduated from poly....hope i'll end my roller coaster ride soon...

Häppy Nèw Yêår!!

Welcome to the very first day of a bring new year in 2005....i hope better things will be in stored for me and the surroundings more pleasing to me....im new to my existing company and i hope i'll be able to blend in well wif the pple there....there seem to be ain't any frequency between me and them....
almost half the day is gone today....i juz hope the time would pass slower so it wont be monday again....waking up early and stuff is so so hard for me now....
gonna go out soon...so wish everyone a happy new year and more good things to come....